I apologise for not quite remembering, but were you the anon asking about vae/vaer pronouns? I apologise for thinking that you were rude. Just, mm, a general sort of thing: my knee-jerk reaction when people say “What the fuck is ‘x thing about transness’?” is to worry that they’re snapping out of disbelief and indignance, like someone asking, “What the fuck is a ‘Justin Bieber fan convention’?”
I’m sorry for jumping to conclusions. I’ve given the analogy for microaggressions before, haven’t I? Imagine that you had a small yet noticeable stain on your shirt and that all morning people had made fun of you, given you dirty looks, sneered in your direction, and so forth simply because of an inconsequential stain on your shirt. Now, imagine that you come home, and your friend asks, “What’s up with your shirt?” Your friend doesn’t speak with any malice or any intention to hurt you; your friend is genuinely curious. But after hours of hearing complete strangers and coworkers/classmates alike snap at you for something so meaningless, your knee-jerk reaction is to think that your friend, too, is being aggressive. Does that make sense?
So it is here. I’m used to getting stepped on and kicked around for trans matters. When I noticed your message and the curse word in it (I don’t care about cursing at all and do so myself quite often as my followers know), I feared that your question might not have been genuine. That you might not have been coming from an open-minded place, ready to consider the issue and perhaps learn! I hope that I could help you, though.
Ah gosh thank you so much and I’m so sorry for responding late ahh I’m the trash one here, not you. But yep yep I definitely see Kaworu as asexual and not quite really enjoying sex (as opposed to, say, Mari, whom I headcanon as asexual but who enjoys sex because of vaer partners’ responses and so on) to a point of being indifferent if not repulsed.
I think that Shinji would be fairly confused at first but would become understanding with time, as Kaworu explained faer feelings. Kaworu would still enjoy Shinji’s pleasure because when Shinji’s happy, fae’s happy. Fae might on occasion even hold Shinji when faer dear datefriend took care of, ahem, natural needs.
Imagine Kaworu considering what to get Shinji on a birthday! There are the obvious things like sheet music or those catgut cello strings that Shinji’s been eyeing, or maybe a new telescope for stargazing (or even that new guide on astronomy that just came out with an updated list of newly discovered stars and meteors and all that jazz!). But fae pauses and wonders if maybe fae should step into Shinji’s shoes (pants not tucked in, of course) and think about what an Allosexual would want.
Fae asks Mari who gives faer a massive list of sex toys for Shinji (as a joke, of course, and she expects faer to know that vae’s joking, but apparently she underestimated Kaworu’s trust in vaer). Fortunately Kaworu also asks Misato to glance over the list. And Misato sort of
and then offers Kaworu a suggestion: tickets to a show at a planetarium. Shinji enjoys that immensely and by the time they’re walking home, holding hands, Shinji can’t stop grinning. Can’t stop thanking Kaworu over and over again.
Kaworu’s overjoyed too. The next morning Misato receives a massive call of warm thank-you. Fae’ll never really Get these allosexuals, but maybe fae and Shinji are not so different after all, y’know?
And thank you so much for reading my tags, oh gosh. I really do rant a lot in them, don’t I?
By the way, quick pronoun crash course:
And you don’t have to go with my headcanons, ahh!
(Oh my goodness sorry for the extremely late response r.i.p. me.)
Anyway, actually, now that I think about it, my falling for Evangelion is very religion-esque. Huh. I never considered it that way. But, and I apologise sincerely if this sounds offensive, I suppose that Evangelion has touched me in a way that religions can touch others who were in my position (e.g. ready to give the world up).
I really want to analyse Utena and I’m already rewatching it! I would love to analyse and rip it apart, though I kind of want to finish analysing Evangelion first. If that’s even possible. I don’t think I’ll ever reach the end of the rabbit-hole.
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